self-convincing

After 17 years of holding on to an idea and a certain conviction, I had to take a step back, and with much sadness let go of it. I had to accept the certain truth - there is none who has the pure truth about our origin, and about the world beyond this one. Some have better ideas than others, but even the most hopeful ideas get squished by human narrow-mindedness. No longer I can ignore that, and although grateful for new angle on life, I go on in search of understanding. With same sad inevitability I also accepted that I will never fully grasp the meaning of my being, I can only continue gathering bits and pieces and move perpetually toward the full knowledge.